Dealing With A Loss.

May 13, 2014

I feel like a part of me is dead.. It's been a while since I've seen your presence, but I know you're gone completely now. Life has been much harder since you've left me. I have had to compensate quite a lot for losing you. I never realized how good you were to me until now. You helped keep me normal and healthy. You were always there to help me deal with the unhealthy things I threw at you, and now I have to really be careful. You helped save me a ton of money, and I never even knew I was saving it until now.

I should have been more grateful for you. If I would have known in time I would have treated you better. I wouldn't have stressed you out so much. If only I had known then what I know now, things would have been different. I would have worshiped you and taken such great care of you. I would have given you everything you liked, and stayed away from the things you didn't. If I would have known in time, I would have appreciated you.

It shows how much I miss you in my face, I look tired all of the time. Sometimes, I even lose all of the color in my face. I looked much healthier when you were around. I looked much happier when you were around. I was happy, and far less moody. You'd be amazed how consistent I was when you were around. I even stayed the same weight for over 6 years, until you left me. My skin was almost blemish free, and now it's covered in bruises, and small marks. I had so much energy when you were around, and now that is lost.

I never appreciated you the way I should have, Pancreas. You were so good to me, and I never knew until I lost you. I miss you everyday, and I wish you were here more and more. I hope that others will realize how amazing their life is since they have you, Pancreas.