Typical Girl

April 20, 2014

[ Disclaimer:I don't like that this is okay! That it's okay for girls to sit there and nit pick every single thing wrong with their body. I don't like that we are told to look a certain way, or feel a certain way. I don't like that we are driving ourselves crazy, and making ourselves unhappy. I don't like that every single girl has at one point in their lives felt she wasn't beautiful or good enough. ]

You are beautiful. 

You are enough.

You are loved.

Every single girl has insecurities, they wish they could change at least one thing about themselves. Especially physical insecurities, I have a whole bunch! In fact, this blog is very hard for me to write because I weigh the most I have ever weighed in my life. I have the most extra skin I have ever had in my life. I am the most unsatisfied with how I have let my body go than I ever have been. Here is a list of some of the things I don't like the most:

I don't like that my lips sometimes get dry. 

I don't like the dark circles under my eyes. 

I don't like having zits on my face.

I don't like that no matter how much I exercise, 

I will always have this little belly. 

I don't like that I have cellulite. 

I don't like that I have stretch marks.

I don't like that I have a much more round stomach

just at the bottom of my torso. 

I don't like that I have extra skin under neath

my arms. 

I don't like that I have "love handles".

I don't like how prominent my inner thigh is. 

I don't like how curvy I am.

I don't like my outer thighs.

I don't like that I have short nails.

I don't like that I have split ends.

I don't like that my eyelashes are thin.

I don't like that my skin gets dry.

 Now, let me go back over this list more in depth.

"I don't like that my lips sometimes get dry." Because, I don't drink enough water.

"I don't like the dark circles under my eyes." Because, I don't get enough sleep. 

"I don't like having zits on my face." Because, I stress myself out too much. 

"I don't like that no matter how much I exercise, I will always have my little belly." Because, it's not just about exercise. It's all about eating right. 

"I don't like that I have cellulite." Because, it shows my poor diet, and lack of exercise. 

"I don't like that I have stretch marks." Because, it shows how quickly my body had to make space. 

"I don't like that I have a much more round stomach just at the bottom of my torso." Because, it shows I don't eat well. 

"I don't like that I have extra skin under neath my arms." Because, I am stronger than that shows. 

"I don't like that I have "love handles"." Because, I don't exercise enough. 

"I don't like how prominent my inner thigh is." Because, I don't exercise enough. 

"I don't like how curvy I am." Because, I know I have extra curve where there could be muscle. 

"I don't like my outer thighs." Because, they reveal I don't exercise. 

"I don't like that I have short nails." Because, it shows you my anxiety. 

"I don't like that I have split ends." Because, I damage my hair to try and improve my appearance. 

"I don't like that my eyelashes are thin." Because, I put on mascara to try and improve my appearance. 

"I don't like that my skin gets dry." Because I don't drink enough water. 

I know what you are thinking, "Stop!" (In fact some of you may have even quit reading by now.) It's annoying to hear someone sit there and tell you the things that they don't like about themselves. It's even more annoying when you don't even see the flaws until they point them out. I don't like that I have a list as long as I do of things I don't like about myself physically. I do because of one simple fact; I know that I was born perfectly. Every single one of us was born absolutely perfect. Not perfect for your neighbor, your sister, the president, your favorite actress or actor, and not even for your twin. You were born perfectly for you. I was not born with those love handles, short nails, thighs, dark circles, etc. Those came with time. Those are things that I can change. I don't have to have a surgery to alter my "imperfections". I just have to be the best possible 'me' that I can be. 

Is it starting to become clear the reason I am writing this yet? Let me elaborate even further:

I have noticed that when I am not feeling well physically, mentally, or emotionally it starts to show physically. It is something you can see all throughout your body. That's why when you are having a bad day and feeling awful when you look in the mirror you are going to not like what you see. If you sit there and stare at yourself you can actually see yourself becoming more and more unattractive. However, if you sit there and you stare at yourself while pointing out things you like about yourself you'll become more appealing to yourself. 

When you focus on the negative you are going to get negative back. 

I choose to focus on the things that I can change. I don't want to look at my stretch marks as visually unappealing scars on my body, but rather marks to show how far I have progressed in my life. I don't want to look at my face and see tired eyes, and a stressed out Karrie. I want to look at my face and see all the freckles that cover my face, and the eyes I was given to see the beauty in the world. I don't want to look at my hips and think, "I am way too curvy." But, rather see that I have hips that will make having the gift of making life that much easier. 

When you look at the positive, it becomes that much easier to see all of the beauty in life. 

I want to be 100% satisfied with who I have become. I don't want my children to have any idea what it means to be self-conscious. There is only one reason I would ever let them be dissatisfied with themselves: If they have treated others in a way that they know, with every bit of their soul, is wrong. Even then I would help them fix the situation. I want to live a life with no regrets. Live in a way I would never be ashamed of. Be a person I would be proud to be around anyone, any place, any time. I would want my kids to learn to live the same way. 

Our kids are the next generation, and we are the ones who are going to teach them. 

Don't let self confidence, and pride die with us. 

You are more magnificent than you give yourself credit.