Blog Day

March 17, 2013
 I've spent practically half my day writing this blog and the other half just relaxing. I want everyone who reads this to understand why I created the blog. It was not for attention or for people to feel pity for me. I do not want anyone to treat me any differently and I do not want to be babied. I understand wanting to feel bad because it's a sad situation. It really is, I just don't think anyone feeling sad for me will help and I absolutely hate the sympathetic hand on my arm asking me, "How are you doing?" Well, I'll answer that question for you right now. I am doing fine. I am struggling just the same as you are. Our struggles are just different. It doesn't mean I am struggling anymore or any less than any of you are, I'm just struggling differently. I am coming to terms with the fact that this is my trial that is going to make me stronger, it's not my first choice, but I don't get to decide. The only thing I get to decide is how I'm going to let this affect me.

 I'm going to make this normal for me. I'm not going to let it put me into a depression or let it make me feel like I have it worse than everyone else and I need everyone to feel sorry for me. I don't have it worse than everyone, in fact I probably have it better than a lot of people. I'm going to be as positive as possible and accept that I will have bad days and this will be hard and a life altering challenge, however, I can still live my life. I'm very capable of making this normal and being positive and getting through it. I have my whole life to do it. 

 I'm writing this so I have a voice. This way I get to tell my own story in my own words. I appreciate people caring but I don't need anyone to feel bad or treat me differently. I am the only one who this is really going to have any impact on. I understand it's a change for my family but after the newness wears off and I am a pro at anything diabetes they won't even hardly think about it. I will think about it every day for the rest of my life. Support is all I need. I'm writing this so I can have a record of my story and if I'm ever needing to get a boost of confidence that I can do this I can look back and see how far I've come. Writing has always been my therapy and my outlet, now I have a reason to share it publicly. I hope you enjoy going through my journey with me. I don't usually let people tag along, but I figure everything else is changing I can overlook it this one time. ;) Goodnight!