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I've wanted to write a book about all of my experiences being diabetic, and advice I would give to newly diagnosed diabetics. I've been hesitant because I know that everyone has a different experience with diabetes. Not everyone is going to deal with the same things, or have the same medicine. I know that it's different for absolutely everyone, and I couldn't imagine myself writing this book expecting to relate to everyone in the same way. I know that it's different for everyone, and I know that I am not the "know it all" of diabetes. In fact, I don't know everything there is to know about it, I've just begun to learn. What I do know, is that by writing it all down I have the opportunity to help maybe just one person, and that, that would be enough for me.
I've been hesitant saying anything about my desire to write a book, because I had no clue what I was going to put in it. I didn't even have an idea of how I wanted to write it, or if I even should. Well, it finally hit me. I want to write the book as a letter. I want to write down my experiences, and the advice that I can give. I want to write down my future hopes and goals for my diabetes, and what I want to do for the community.
I also couldn't fathom writing a book about a disease that a lot more people are being diagnosed with for personal gain. If I am writing this to hopefully help newly diagnosed diabetics, then why should my words be the only thing helping them? I know what it's like to have this thrown at you and to struggle. I know how frustrating it is to have to rearrange your whole life to accommodate a change you had no say in. I know exactly what it is like to realize just how much you are going to have to pay for the stupid disease you never asked for. So, why should my words be the only thing helping? I know there are a lot of foundations out there looking for a cure for diabetes. I applaud them, and I hope they find it. However, until then it is still expensive to have diabetes! Even after they find the cure, it will most likely still be expensive to cure your diabetes. With that said, I want to make my own foundation to help the people with diabetes. To help them pay for things that they just might not be able to. No one should have to go without, because they can't afford it. With this book my biggest hope is to help. Even if it's just that one person.
Now, for one of the first pages I want seen in my book:
My dear sweet children,
I want to tell you the truth whenever I can, without taking
away your innocence. I want you to know that I will never lie to you, and I
will tell you everything when I feel it won’t make you grow up too soon. I don’t
know if I will ever need to tell you this, or when I’ll need to, but I just
want you to know this: My biggest fear of bringing you into this world is that
you will have what mommy has, that I will have passed on my type-one diabetes
to you. I would not wish that upon absolutely anyone, and my hope is that you
won’t have it too. I only wish the best for you, and will go out of my way to give
you just that. Even though I wish and pray that it won’t happen, I know that life
is not going to be easy or fair. There are going to be a lot of trials that you
face. A lot of them I can’t make any better for you, but I promise I will
always be there for you no matter what, no matter when, and no matter where.
I am always preparing myself for the day that I know I’m
bringing you into the world. I am learning how to be the best me I can, so that
I can be the best mom to you. I know that being healthy is the most important
thing I can be, for me and for you, and that is my main focus. I can promise
you that health, and exercise are going to be very important parts of our
household, but I promise not to deprive you of a normal childhood. We’ll eat
healthy all of the time, but you know that I am going to just love spoiling you
so we’ll go out and try new treats. I’ll teach you how to be healthy from the
very beginning, just in case you will have diabetes. I won’t hide it from you,
and I will always answer any questions you have.
I’m writing this to you because diabetes has been the most
life changing thing for me so far. It’s going to impact our lives greatly, and
I want you to be completely informed. I couldn’t think of anyone I’d want to
know all about my experience more than my sweet little babies. There is no one
I’d want to share everything with more than you.
I’ll love you always my little ones,
Mom
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