Feeling Free.

May 2, 2013
 I am starting to finally let go of the people in my life who don't do anything positive for me. It's about time that I start thinking about myself and do what I need to for me. I've always been under the impression that if I didn't help others that I would be a bad person. Even when I really couldn't help others I would force myself to do it because I just didn't want to be a bad person. It does not make you a bad person to let go of everyone else's problems and focus on your own. You are not a superhero and you can't solve everything. Especially when you are having problems of your own it is terribly hard to be able to fix other people's problems. I have learned that I start to put my problems on to other people like they are the ones who have been doing it wrong when it's been me all along. We start to project what we see in ourselves onto other people. There is no logical way you can help someone by telling them things that aren't even wrong with them.

 Letting go isn't always easy. Right now, it's the easiest thing I've had to do. I need to focus on me and what my next steps are in life. Not try to help others when I can't even help myself. I can't be a stepping stool because I feel too weak to hold us both up. I can't be a punching bag because I would be out the first punch. I am not strong enough right now to be that person. I don't want to be that person... I want to feel free and only focus on bettering myself. that's what I need and that's what I intend to have. :)