I'm Scared.

May 4, 2013
 I know the things that could happen if I don't take care of my diabetes.. Well, what if I do and they still happen? I'm terrified that I am going to lose my sight, function in my kidneys, and feeling in my feet. I'm scared beyond belief that having diabetes and having to manage it everyday won't be a trial enough and I'll get worse and more sick. I just think of the future and it scares me. I don't know what I would do or how I would handle it. I am scared of how my future will be. I am scared if my kids will have it and if I will have to help teach them. I'm scared of having to deal with more of these trials because I don't know how much more I can take.

 It's one thing after the other and I'm running out of energy. I am tired of having to pick myself up after people have knocked me down. My energy level is running low. I don't want to think about it anymore and I don't want to have to worry about it. I know that it is a possibility and I do have to be careful and watch for it. I just don't want to. I want a break from all of this madness. I am truly exhausted.