First Day Back to Work

March 16, 2013
 Today started better than the other days. I knew I had to go to work and that I had to wake up early so I could check my blood sugar and take insulin and eat. (I've gotten so much better at doing all that. It only took 15 minutes with my hesitation.) I also had to make lunch and pack all my insulin and things so I could eat on my break. Thankfully, I didn't have to go in until 2 instead of at 10. This gave me time to nap and I even watched 'The Princess Bride' that show is hilarious! "No more rhyming I mean it!" "Anybody got a peanut?" Then it was time to go to work.

 It was kind of hard to be at work because I have to do a lot of bending and have a lot of energy both I can't do very well. I liked feeling like I was in my old routine though, made me feel a little bit more normal. It went by very quickly and I got to go home! :) 

 I went to the store to pick up a few things and you have NO idea how hard it is being in a store, especially when it's Easter! There is candy everywhere and I just want to eat it all. Every aisle I looked down there was something I probably shouldn't have but I really wanted. I think it's just one of those things where you want what you can't have. I wanted a lot of things and it was actually really sad to think I used to be able to grab it no problem but now that's completely different. I hope someday it gets easier to go into a store and not want absolutely everything in sight and feel sad knowing I can't have it. 

 After my adventure at the store I was incredibly happy to be able to go home and just relax. Even then being at home there's so many things I would have to work really hard to fit into my diet and they're just sitting in front of my face. I realize that it's a ridiculous thought to clear out anything in the house I can't eat whenever I want, the house would be empty. I guess this is just a way of gaining some incredible self control. I'm just so hungry on this new diet that I want to eat and I shouldn't have more than my 3 meals 60 carbohydrate limit. I know how to eat! Those are some baby meals compared to what I'm used to. I will get used to it eventually. 

 It's funny how quickly your priorities can change in times like this. When I checked my blood sugar before I went to bed it had come down all the way to 150. I was so excited about it. It was kind of funny just how excited I was over my blood sugar. I'm going to be ridiculously healthy after all of this. I hope. :P