How is it Already Old?

March 21, 2013
 I had to go back to work after almost a week. I dislike very much getting up early. I am starting to realize I have to get up even earlier in order to eat my right amount of carbohydrates for breakfast. I knew I had to stop sleeping in but no one knew by how much. It takes me about an hour to prepare and eat every meal now. That's a long time. I could have snoozed my alarm at least 4 times during that hour.

 Work is kind of different now. I have to be really careful before each sitting and try to make sure that my blood sugar isn't too high or too low. It would be so awkward if I had to stop the sitting to go check my blood sugar and possibly eat a snack. I've learned that work really does lower my blood sugar quite a bit. I guess it's all of the moving around and energy I use. It's hard work getting those babies to smile!

 After work I got a phone call from my insurance just going over a little bit more the things I'm covered on and what I'm not. I found out so many things I have to do now that I had no clue. I have to see an eye doctor at least once a year, that freaks me out because I pride myself on my vision and I would hate to lose that. I also have to check my cholesterol and do another standard test for diabetes that I forgot what it was called and I am just too lazy to get up and go check. It freaks me out how many things can go wrong just like that with diabetes. If I don't take care of myself I could start having issues with my kidneys or my eyes or I could just be having issues. It was an informative, scary and helpful phone call. I now just have to wait a couple weeks and we'll talk again and go over my benefits some more.

 I'm also a little worried because there's what they call a honeymoon phase with my diabetes where the insulin could be working great and all of a sudden it just stops working the same. I guess it's a good thing that I'm keeping such close track of my blood sugars and the times. Doctors actually end up doing some things for a reason. ;) Hopefully since I'm keeping track of everything I'll be able to avoid any major issues.

 Also, I have been going to the gym more just because it's a great way to get a bit more food in me or bring my blood sugar down. Tonight it went up way more than it should have, I'm not really sure why, but I went to the gym and I'm down to a normal level now. I've never been so motivated to go to the gym! I hope I am fit after this :)

 I have started to notice today that I just don't want to do any of it and I'd like to just eat anything I want. It seems silly I am sick of giving myself shots and checking my blood sugar. I've only been doing it for a few days it just seems like it's been forever! I guess there's no better time to get used to all of this and stop thinking there's a way out. There's not. This is my life :)