I'm a Slacker :/

April 11, 2013

 I am getting so bad at this! I don't know why but I just get exhausted after going to work and doing very small chores and crossing the smallest things off of my to do list. I have been so bad I haven't even gone to the gym! I have the ambition and motivation to write and go to the gym and cross off more on my to do list the only problem is that it's stuck in my head. I can't put my ambition and motivation to good use at the moment. It's alright though because everyone needs a break. You can't work 24/7 your whole life or you'll die from exhaustion. I would like to die from natural causes so if I just am not up for something I am not going to do it. 

 It is getting much easier to get up and go to work though because I like being there. I like doing something and feeling like I've accomplished something even if the only benefit to me is a paycheck. There's nothing wrong with going to work just to get a paycheck. There are a lot of people all over who do the exact same thing. The problem is when it starts to just mentally and physically drain you. I still feel generally happy and A-Okay in my health so I am not worrying too much about my current job situation. :) 

 Even without going to the gym my blood sugar levels have started to even out and come back down to normal. I love that. :) You really have no idea how the silliest of things can make such a difference in your life until you have to notice. I notice when my blood sugar stays level how much happier I am. Other people who lose limbs or senses notice all the little things they enjoyed or that were so easy and now they are a lot more difficult. I'm not saying that having diabetes is anywhere close to losing limbs or senses but I do think there are similarities. Just in the fact that I have had to adjust and I now appreciate some of the little things I never did before, so do they. 

 The pen has been an awesome change! It is so convenient and easy I don't know how I did without it before! At first I was worried it wasn't working because my glucose levels were off the charts. Now I just think it was bad timing for the switch to the pen. I was sick when I switched and being sick doesn't help your levels at all. They were ridiculously out of whack for that week because my body is adjusting to all new things. Luckily, now I know how it kind of is when I'm sick and how to deal with it better. There are blessings in everything, you just have to be willing to look.