When It Rains, It Pours...

April 3, 2013
 I woke up just feeling crappy. I had a sore throat and a headache and I didn't want to take any medication because I didn't know what would effect my blood sugar and what wouldn't. So, I went to work and I dealt with it. I tried to go home earlier because my head was just pounding, but I couldn't so I toughed it out as best I could. I was very miserable and all I wanted was to go home. No such luck. :(

 After work I went in to the chiropractor and got adjusted a little bit. I learned that it can really help to stay adjusted because it could help the pancreas out and I might start producing insulin like I need. It can also make me really sick or I can get bruised very easily. I'm learning that with almost everything I do now it's a double edged sword because they have no idea how certain things will effect me. I think that's the part I dislike the most is that there isn't just one set routine or cure that I can use, I have to keep changing it constantly and hoping for the best. That's very frustrating to me because I am a planner, I like to have things planned and I hate when I don't know how things will go in the future. Maybe that's just why I got diabetes is because I need to just learn how to go with the flow and let things happen. I'm not there yet. Maybe in a year or so I will be really great at just going with the flow and improvising. As for right now I am feeling very frustrated I will have to change everything every so often to adapt to my ever so changing diabetes. Dang that diabetes.

 I finally got home and I just wanted to collapse. I have felt so sick all day. I spent most the rest of the night in the bath tub because it was so warm and I have been shivering all day. I don't know what's wrong with me but my blood sugar is all over the place, I have a fever, sore throat, I don't want to take any medicine because I'm afraid what it will do to my blood sugar and I might end up back in the hospital. I guess when I said I would have to face all of this head on I didn't think I'd be getting absolutely all that I could. I knew when you got sick you had to be extra careful with your blood sugar levels and I might have to adjust my insulin intake. I was aware that I am more likely to get sick and that the infections could turn into something more serious. I just wasn't aware that I would have to deal with getting sick only 3 weeks after finding out I am a diabetic. I just want to curl up in a ball and wait it out. I don't want to feel sick anymore. It hurts so much I can hardly swallow without it being extremely painful. Luckily, I have Jake and my Mom who are willing to go out and look for some medicine I can have. That helped a little. I think I'll spend the rest of my night in the bathtub and no gym for me. :(