I'm So Bad At This..

April 14 & 15, 2013
 I am getting worse at writing daily. I write well when I'm excited about what I'm writing. Well, Sunday I was productive which was a lot better than Saturday. Saturday I stayed in my bed the entire day. I did not want to get up or function or anything. Sunday I at least got up and got ready and then went out and was around my friends. I even put in a load of laundry. Whether or not I did anything with the laundry that's debatable.. Okay, I didn't. Sunday Was a good day though because I felt happy. I didn't have a reason to other than getting ready for the day and feeling good about myself. Sunday wasn't my best day but I still felt happy just because of getting ready and feeling like I looked okay. Now I have to start getting ready and feeling alright about myself and my days might go a little better.

 Now for Monday, I was much more productive on Monday but I didn't feel as great.. Happiness Isn't something that just happens for me. I have to work at it everyday and really think of all the reasons I should be happy and then just ignore all of the things that could make me sad. I can go from happy to sad very quickly if I allow myself. If one thing goes wrong even the tiniest of things I have to really tell myself all of the reasons I should be happy and not let this get me down. Every day for me is a struggle. There are days that I just don't do anything I don't have to and sit there and be completely lazy. I think everyone should have days where they relax but that doesn't mean they have to be ridiculously unproductive. It's not that happiness is something I can never truly have it's just a choice I have to make everyday multiple times a day. It's something I'm working on to be truly happy. It'll be a long hard process but I believe it will be definitely worth it. One day I will be so happy that everyone around me can just tell and they'll feel a little bit happier too. One day it will all be alright, but in order to have that I have to choose EVERY day that I want to be happy. When I start doing that it will just come naturally and I'll be a little more happy every day. I also have to become really healthy, because healthy people are the happiest it seems. I will be much happier when my body isn't struggling just to do normal functions. This is just what I've been thinking about a lot lately. Just being happy and healthy is my biggest desire. One day, starting today. :)